And I know it won’t last but right now it’s the sense of shock and disappointment. Not the fact I didn’t get into my course or uni, that I couldn’t care because I have a job next year and I’ll learn skills that no course could teach me. It’s that even though I didn’t work my ass off like I could have, I turned up to most of my classes more so than last year, put in more effort than I normally do and still get the average that if I know it but don’t study. I feel bad for Dad, he doesn’t seem to mind but paying for education isnt easy, and he always said that my enter was my fault if I was unhappy and to not blame him. I always thought, fuck that..who cares about Enter! I’m going to not even try and see how he likes that..and well he doesnt care but I do. It hurts.
But I know within a matter of day’s I’ll put it behind me.
I just wanna have a shout out to the people I spent the last 2 weeks with.
DoE crew, thanks for a good hike. We had a good time, thanks for looking after my foot :)
Lucy B - Got me through that hike and just the last couple days. Thanks for all the great chats and just easing my stress.
Sam, Mark Spillers, Jo, Mitch and Dave Jacko - Just met you on Saturday but you managed to make me luagh and forget about a whole lot of shit. Balderdash, need I say more?
The Instructors - Gee you guys were a funny. Neil Ritcho, Greg Gold and Erin Flynn. never have i been soo uncomfortable in those sceanrios but you seemed to calm me down and just fill my brain with all these life skills that I need to have. Big props to Ritcho, you were the first one I broke down to, and you were took it graciously. Erin, thank you for just sitting with me and chatting through everything. You have no idea how much I appreciated the fact you made me laugh.
Crowley + Sus + Teh Family, thanks. <3
Feel like I was thrown in the dryer this last week, and I know theres only up, but slowly getting by.
